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I think the prism game is cancelled, sorry. The game is ugly and not fun to play, I can’t change that, and it’s not even acceptable as a Plok minigame.

I don’t know what to do now.

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luckycassette:

thekingofakrillic:

I think my antidepressants are making me want to kill myself. There is so much that I worry about, and I spend my entire life waiting for something to go wrong. I go to pieces when anything even slightly bad happens. The only game I want to make right now is a horror game where the player is…

Relax friend, as a fellow poop-brained dev I contemplate death multiple times, every day. I think about dying and suicide about equally, every time I find myself at leisure. I’m supposed to be thinking about sex or whatever is typical of the young adult male mind people keep ascribing, but no, just death. It is an unavoidable topic my (chemically) depressed brain gravitates towards. It’s something I’d rather (really) not think about whatsoever, but that’s surely also the reason why I do.

My logic always tends towards a more nihilistic conclusion, where death is inevitable, and for some proportionately negligible amount of pleasure that life can bring, the rest is mundane, laborious, unfulfilling and most importantly, insignificant from a first person continuity perspective inherent in mortal life.

I’ve heard all the optimistic approaches I care for, which are generally made by those who genuinely enjoy life and are otherwise more romantic than realistic, who look at the creation of children, art, and so forth as a form of immortality. The only reason why I do not kill myself is out of defiance of mortality, for what good it will do. Let the record show that when I die, I was never okay with the prospect. I do, however, have very sincere plans to commit suicide if medical sciences haven’t advanced significantly to increase the lifespan of humans noticeably by the time I’m 80, so I can at least die by choice and know WHEN it happens. If I don’t make it to that point, my current self would be incredibly disappointed.

I personally stopped taking those anti-depressants ages ago, and while these thoughts obviously didn’t go away, as they are learned, it did solve a multitude of other issues. If you think that your medication is affecting you adversely, I highly recommend you talk to whoever prescribes you, and if you think you are at all able to manage things without medication, I suggest strongly that you explore that.

At the end of the day, and I know you didn’t ask for input specifically, all I can say is life is tough. Life is tough, it’s bullshit, and the only way it gets better is if you invest yourself in it. You need to lie to yourself, pretend that things are better than they are. You need to fall in love with life like you would with a person. There is no value in anything until you decide that there is. Life IS meaningless, just like existence is.

If you want life to be better, or yourself to be better, fake it ‘til you make it.

But I feel you though. This is every day for me, and for countless others as well. Just relax the best you can, and try to find people you can trust to open up about this stuff so that you don’t need to keep it to yourself.

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I think my antidepressants are making me want to kill myself. There is so much that I worry about, and I spend my entire life waiting for something to go wrong. I go to pieces when anything even slightly bad happens. The only game I want to make right now is a horror game where the player is disemboweled over and over again with no escape. I can’t work on that bloody Temple Run ripoff right now, sorry.

I can’t hear my mother coughing without thinking she is going to die. I freak out when I hear a stray cat outside because I heard one right before my mom and sister fought each other a month ago. There is an email my dad sent last week that I have not responded to be he wants me to go to college and learn to drive and visit him and right now all I want to do is curl up in bed and cry.

I won’t actually kill myself, so you don’t have to call 911 or anything. I know I can be a drama queen, but often when I am freaking out about gamedev, it is because I am feeling like this. At least when it happens, I don’t respond by being a dick to other developers like a certain piece of seafood. Don’t worry about flooding my inbox with hugboxy messages, I just need to tell all of this to someone and explain some of my behavior over the past year

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Popped back into Plok to try out Unity’s 3d color correction.

I know that I spend way too much time tweaking the visuals, but it’s what allows me to stay motivated. I feel a lot more confident about my games when they look pretty.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=coAzgUrXNKE

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holy shit
Is this true?

holy shit

Is this true?

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Jumping spiders and new animations.
I’m kind of stuck, though. I don’t know how to make the enemies posing a threat without deaths feeling unfair and cheap.

Jumping spiders and new animations.

I’m kind of stuck, though. I don’t know how to make the enemies posing a threat without deaths feeling unfair and cheap.

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Made fan art of thedukeofzill’s Blockhead’s Blunder.
Maybe now shloop will go back to work on it. Worked for the Tiny Archer dev.

Made fan art of thedukeofzill’s Blockhead’s Blunder.

Maybe now shloop will go back to work on it. Worked for the Tiny Archer dev.

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plok-explodes:

Zob heads off on the trail of the Queen.

Will Plok finally get to explode in today’s new comic strip?

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I’m running out of ideas.
I wanted to make the main character ride a pogo stick, but it might be too hard to get collectables and too frustrating to move. Then I tried to make the whip more realistic with hinge joints, but it moved too slowly and was buggy.
The game is boring as it is now, and I’m not sure what else to do.

I’m running out of ideas.

I wanted to make the main character ride a pogo stick, but it might be too hard to get collectables and too frustrating to move. Then I tried to make the whip more realistic with hinge joints, but it moved too slowly and was buggy.

The game is boring as it is now, and I’m not sure what else to do.

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Fan art of chirimoyagames’ game Tiny Archer. Based dev.
The game deserves better fan art than this. It doesn’t feel like I’ve improved at all over the past 2 years.
EDIT: Removed the cel shading.

Fan art of chirimoyagames’ game Tiny Archer. Based dev.

The game deserves better fan art than this. It doesn’t feel like I’ve improved at all over the past 2 years.

EDIT: Removed the cel shading.